grief/loss

beach and ocean

Sometimes I Break Down…

Sometimes I break downOut of the blueLike unexpected stormWhich hits the landFor no real apparent reason Grief kicks inAnd surprises me with its despairAnd I stand there helplesslyAs my skirt gets soaked by rain Vulnerability shows its faceThe layers of ‘I’m fine’ are wearing thinPenetrated by lonelinessI become silent My head achesFrom all those unshed

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Grief – A Very Personal Experience

Today marks 2 months since Amya Mirica passed away. Yesterday Chris and I went out for the first time in the evening and left Ananda Mae with my sister. We went to the classical concert of the Brandenburg Orchestra of which we have season’s tickets. The previous concert was exactly 2 months ago, the evening

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mural with child

My Child Died – A Conversation Stopper

Many people are lost for words when they hear me say that my child has passed away. Losing one’s own child is one of those experiences that we don’t know how to deal with – an untimely death. I want to encourage people to dare to speak to me about my child, to mention her

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Remembering 1 September 2011 – The Birth of my Twin Daughters

This is the whole day of the birth of my girls Amya Mirica Hope & Ananda Mae Passion – 4 weeks ago. This is a very personal and emotional post – keep tissues ready. This was written  one week after looking back… May one day like this be an inspiration to mothers. Remembering 1 September

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